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[Aug. 30th, 2004|11:22 pm] |
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| | "Tilt Ya Head Back" Christina Aguilera ft. Nelly | ] |
So dance was fun tonite. Me n Beth were talking about our crazi italian families who want you to eat and eat so you're fat! "BRRITTT-A-NNNIII you are waaaaay to skinny, eat eat eat!" "But..." "Quiet bambino (child)I SAID EAT!" lol! Italians are like have to be in control aggressive people. I mean I like to be in control and I work hard for what I want, but wow good thing I'm only half! lol. Crazi ppl. Monica and me were talking about driving together sometime since it crax us up when you dance all crazy and immitate celine dion in the car just to c other peoples expressions. It's like when me n christine went to wal-mart. There were liek size I bra's (that could like fit on my head) and so I took it walking around the store saying "my poor grandma she's so fat..." then I saw this one lady and well here's the convo:
Me: Excuse Ma'm. Ma'm?!
Lady: (Loox up at me in a mean way)
Me: Uh ma'm my grandma is in the hospital and I'm shopping for her. You look about her size, do you think the bra will fit her?
Lady: (low grouchy voice) I HAVE NO IDEA!
Me: Ma'm no need to get angry, I was just tryin to help my grandma out, calm down."
haha! good times good times! We were gonna throw the bra in someones cart when they weren't looking, but ppl guard their carts now days. Anyhow I gtg. ttyl. *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"If God wants you to do something, you'll have to attempt effortlessly in order to know God wants this to happen." |
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| Beyond Upset... |
[Aug. 25th, 2004|07:14 pm] |
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| | "Carwash" Christina Aguilera ft. Missy Elliot | ] |
urgh! the past couple days of school have been like so frustrating. I've just been in a bad mood since school started. I'm scared I might be bipolar. That would suck, because that is like one of the worst things u can have and it would totally wreck my life. I'm just stressed out beyond all reason. Plus lately I'll just cry over nothing. It's stupid. I hate being medically depressed cause it's like you have no control over it half the time. It'd be nice for even one day to not deal with that, but I don't get a break, I just work on tryin to get better and does that happen? No, not really. I'm not sayin God's torturing me here, yet let's think about it though...okay hello! Haven't I been through enough already?! I mean a psycho dad basically defines the past 16 years of my life. Why can't I be happy like most people? It's not fair and I'm lost with no sense of direction. I try my best to be as sweet as can be, but it's getting me no where man. I'm not sayin I wanna start up in drugs or anything, I mean heck no, never would I do something like that EVER. It's just some days like today are really hard and I feel like I can't go on. I just wish God would take me sometimes, but hey who am I to say when I go, ya know? It's like a patience kinda thing. Wait and see, till you succeed. I dunno, but it's very frustrating. I would choose like having something totally physically wrong with me, than something mental. So if you guys pray though, please, please, please pray for me, cause I'm struggling, and I know a lot of you reading this prolly are stugglinh with some issues alsoo and I'd be happy to pray for u, u just gotta let me know. Feel free to leave comments and advice. Otherwise...I think I'm done complaining about my stupid life. so I'll ttyl. *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"watch your thoughts
they become your words
watch your words
they become your thoughts
watch your thoughts
they become your actions
watch your actions
they become your personality
watch your personality
it becomes your character
watch your character
it becomes your destiny" |
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| Yay |
[Aug. 22nd, 2004|06:52 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Honey" Mariah Carey | ] |
Wow, have you ever talked to someone like 1 maybe 2 years later? It's weird, cool, but weird. That happened to me like 5 times in the last month. Not that I mind it, in fact I'm glad to be talking to all those people again. They're awesome! Anywayz I just hope its not like one of those things where ur like oh hey, how r u, then two more years later...lol. Well I start school tomorrow, joy joy joy oh joy. ha! Me n Ashley are gonna pimp out in pink. It's gonna be tight yo. OMG! Did I tell you guys I get to start dancing again?! I'm so psyched. My mom hasn't been able to afford it for a year and suddenly I get to start up again for free. I thought that was good, but then the lady in charge of it was like "Ya since you've been in dance before, I'm going to have you start choreographing." Which is like the best thing ever. I found all this out last nite before me, kristen, sarah, and brian went to olive garden. That was fun too. We met Brians cuzin Kayla, she wasn't very talkative or um very nice, but ya...lol. It's shocking tho cuz Brian's such a nice person and his cuzin's like not. That's about it tho. I might as well clean me room and get ready for school. Bleck. Wish me luck tomorrow. Luv ya'll! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"Love someone for who they are, not what they are." |
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| Man Am I Bored |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|03:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Impossible" Christina Aguilera ft. Alicia Keys | ] |
m u s i c
1) Using band names, spell out your name: I don't understand the question :/
2) Have you ever had a song written about you? who knows, I think so though.
3) What song makes you cry? "I'm OK" by Christina Aguilera, "One Sweet Day" by Mariah Carey ft. Boyz II Men, I don't cry everytime I hear it, but when something relating to those songs were going on, I would.
4) What song makes you happy? Anything by Ashlee Simpson and other songs I can't think of.
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? I turn on 104.7 most of the time, if they are playin old stuff then I'll put on 92.3; if none of those work or I'm in a blah mood I'll put on 105.5
PT. II
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'2
HAIR COLOR: Brunette
SKIN COLOR: Olive I guess
EYE COLOR: Hazel (Brown-Green)
PIERCINGS: ears which are uneven cuz my brother ripped an earring outta my ear when I was 8. urgh! lol.
TATTOOS: None
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Route 66 boxers that are dark blue
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO? "Sunshine" Lil Flip ft. Lea
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH? grapes
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE? a lil cloudy kinda
HOW ARE YOU? okay, kinda bored
d o y o u
GET MOTION .SICKNESS?: no
HAVE A BAD HABIT? mhmmm, biting my nails
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS? as of now yes:)
LIKE TO DRIVE?: sometimes
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Boy Meets World or Fresh Prince
CONDITIONER: Mambo
BOOK: The Notebook, it made me cry and usually nothing makes me cry.
MAGAZINE: Cosmo
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: dr.pepper or water
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: hang out and relax
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Christina Aguilera and Ashlee Simpson
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yep
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: I ran around the block one time and stayed there, I don't think anyone noticed, but I eventually came back home. I don't think that counts.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: can't we got an alarm
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: ALL THE TIME! lol, BIG mistake! I found out my friend was gay cuz I had my brothers friend hit on him and he was all serious about it. Plus it made me mad the rest of the nite cuz he was a hott kid. So much for my luck. lol!
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: they don't got one
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: no
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: um I painted scenery for a play and in first grade I was a christmas present and had to wear a stupid box that I tripped over cuz I was too little for it and then I was a wolf for 2nd grade cuz we did this gay play the 3 wolves and the big bad pig. ay yi yi, ANYWAYZ...
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: ya
BOYFRIEND: nope
GIRLFRIEND: none and never will. lol.
SEXUALITY: haha, what about it? Next question...
CHILDREN: 12, jk. I think living a family of 5 is crazy enuf.
CURRENT CRUSH: no one, I gotta focus on my grades this year.
BEEN IN LOVE? been in lust, what?? been infatuated?? infatuated, but never in love
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: definitely
BEEN HURT?: oui (yes)
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: Bottling my emotinos up, all it did was hurt me in the end.
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: nope
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB. not yet hopefull I will soon
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Ashlee Simpson
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Pink or silver, they're both pretty.
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? knowing someone genuinely cares, rain, california, candy, shopping, chocolate, aroma candles, warm baths, comforting words.
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST? all my friends (cept a few *cough cough* ryan)and my family. I love them all, they're the best!
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET? Prolly Ashlee Simpson cuz my friend burned it for me but half the cd is like real fuzzy, you can't even hear the music (I still appreciate you burning it tho Brandi :)
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS? Kristen, Christine, Jessie, Sarah, lotsa people.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO? Dance, Sing, Design Clothes, Flying for Cheer when stunting, go to church, hang out with friends, tennis, and so on...
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: um yesterday or the day before I forget why. I think its cuz I was so frustrated with some people.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: Yesterday from Kimmy :)
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
THING YOU PURCHASED: a drink n a kit kat bar from QT thx to Kristen
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: ET on Mtv
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Part of the Notebook
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: is completely wrong and should not even exist
TEENAGE SMOKING: grossest thing ever, smoking in general is just nasty
SPICE GIRLS: hahahaha one of the first cds I bought.
*SMOOCH*~BRIT BRI
PS~"Ne concurrencent pas d'autres la cause que nous finirons tout vers le haut avec une personne de toute façon." |
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| Monday |
[Aug. 16th, 2004|03:17 pm] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "My Place" Nelly ft. Jaheim | ] |
Bleck! I have pink eye. That sux dude. Oh well. lol, so today I had lunch with Kristen, Sarah, Jess, and Christine. It was fun, sides that I don't think I've done anything else, but I'm like a blah mood. I dunno y, I think it's cuz I'm sick, but hey who knows. Um...school starts soon, I'm kinda excited kinda not, mostly not. Hmmm I dunno what else to talk about but if anything else fun happens today I will be sure to let you know. Luv ya'll! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"Life is a box of chocolates." |
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| Best Friends |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|06:55 pm] |
What's in a best friend? Is it someone who knows what you're going to say before you say it? Or someone who is always there to depend on? Whatever is in a best friend, I'm not sure, but I do know that the best friend you can have is yourself. You could be surrounded by a bunch of people who you love that are close friends of yours, but it means nothing to you and it makes you feel unworthy. When life gets hard, it's even harder to bounce back up. Sure, sitting in your room watching hopelessy romantic movies, eating chocolate, and lighting your aroma candles might make you feel good (along with a hot scented bubble bath) but there's more to life. Eventually those films you watch will make you realize love like that is unrealistic. I mean hello music doesn't automatically play when you make out with someone. Chocolate's good, until you run out of some and have no money left. Either that or it makes your stomach twist and turn. Aroma candles seem relaxing, however, when they burn out, you're not gonna whip out perfume and spray that all over the place so you can enjoy that smell. Plus, you're not going to light something in your room on fire. Bubble baths are soothing and all, yet you eventually gotta get out of the bathroom so your mom will stop bugging you about using all the hot water. Of course, some girls take different approaches like shopping. It's probably one of the most stress free things you can do. I mean you get a work out walking around the mall and new outfits. What more could you want? Maybe to be happy with yourself? Everyone has something they don't like about themselves. In fact I can name like three things off the top of my head I don't like about myself. One being I'm too skinny (resulting in I don't have curves as much as I'd like to), two I can't stand my nose since when I was lil I got hit with the basketball and none of the doctors noticed it was actually broken, then of course there's three, which is being too short (5'2). Personality wise tho, I don't like how I'm paranoid sometimes, get anxiety over nothing, and how I let my past take over my emotions way way way too much. Then adding on to the fact I'm like the biggest perfectionist doesn't help either. But just cuz there's stuff I don't like about myself doesn't mean there isn't stuff I do like. So to name a few (sorry if I sound cocky, I'm really not meaning to) I like the color of my eyes, which are hazel, I love my complexion, and even tho sometimes it's a pain in the butt, I enjoy the fact that my hairs thick (cuz then that way when I get old, I won't lose too much). Spiritually tho I guess I like that I'm responsible most of the time, caring, and I have good morals and values. Life is a one time thing, why waste it looking at the what ifs and the negative points? We are responsible for one day and one day only. That day is today. What happened yesterday is over and done with. What happens tomorrow no one knows. So I've learned to worry about one day and one day only. It's makes things a lot less stressful. Deal with the problems and issues that are going onright now, but don't deal with yesterdays or tomorrows. Live, love, learn, listen, and laugh. That's all you really need in life. If you leave any comments put three things you like about yourself:) It helps, I promise, otherwise I wouldn't tell you. lol. ttyl. Luv ya lots! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very number of hairs on your head are numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows."
Matthew 10:29-31 |
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| Bored |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|05:34 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | "Sunshine" Lil Flip ft. Leah | ] |
BOLD all that apply:
01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don’t watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I’ve tried marijuana
09. I’ve watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I’ve been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I’m really, really smart
21. I’ve never broken someone’s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I’m paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have really long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one (step)brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I’m popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal
58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I’m a pretty good dancer
60. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington ...um
61. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I’ve rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone. (Not sure..)
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I’ve called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club ( Tom Green is still cool!)
76. I’m not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 8 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes</b>
81. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (alchohal but like 2 shots and that was it).
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend’s ex
99. I have cut my self before
100. I am happy at this moment |
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| Yay 4 Today |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|09:12 pm] |
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| | hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Hands Down" Dashbord Confessional | ] |
Well that title was gay...lol. So I got up went to lunch with Kristen and Sarah (Christine was suppose to come). We rushed to sonic got some fries and a smoothie for Kristen. After that we drove to QT and me and Sarah got rooster booster. Yum! Then I came home relaxed until I called Kristen. She was talking about the cake she made and I decided to go over and try it. It was awesome! One I tried that me and her decided to go get sonic and pay for gas in change. It was fun, but the guy wouldn't take all my change since he didn't wanna count it all. Lazy man. We brought my lil Bam Bam with us. That's when we went to Sonic and Kristen was like "When the lady says that will be 2.83, give her the cat." lol, so I was about to and the lady was all "Awww how cute." So I was like "You wanna pet it?" She's like "No thanks, I'm allergic to cats." She was a nice person and I almost gave her a cat that she would have died over. lol, ay yi yi. Well then we went back to Kristens and we went to Body n' Soul plus seven eleven to get some nachos. After that I went out to dinner with my grandfather and once that was over I came home and did Kristens homework cuz it was fun and I was bored. lol. Oh! And I helped Sarah with French too. Yay! lol. I luv French. Anywayz that's about it for today. Luv ya'll lots. *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
"Give God all your worries and fears...He'll be up all night anyway :)" |
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| Waterworld |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|05:43 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | "California" Phantom Planet | ] |
So today I got to c Brandi for the FIRST time since we got out of school. She took me to waterworld and we hung out there all day which in the end resulted in us being tired, but it was all good. lol. There were so many funny quotes we both said. I'll put um on here:
"IT'S CALLED THE LAZY RIVER, NOT THE SCHIZOPHRINIC RIVER!"
"Wow there's like juice coming out of that leaf."
Me: I heard the song Pharoh Pharoh coming down that huge waterslide.
Brandi: "Were you like Pharoh Pharoh, oh baby, let my ppl go UUUUAHHH BAM!" lol.
"OMG I have the biggest wedgie, they should call this place wedgieworld."
"Yay! We have a wave dance it's called...the wave dance."
"If I was black and italian, would you still be my friend?"
"Did you guys here that? The winds are changing..."
"WHAT?!"
"It's from Monsters Inc."
"No it's not, what the heck? lol."
Anywayz most of um u prolly had to be there. Oh! For any of you who know about the scary psycho that always calls my house and like never leaves me alone. (I know you know him erin).Ya that guy freaked me out beyond all reason and I don't really know how, but man oh man, it was urgh frustratig and weird. I finally had to have some guy yell at him to leave me alone and yet he still called 3 times. Bleh. Just hope I don't have to deal with that anymore. Well tomorrow me, Chrissy, Kri, Sarah, Krystle, and Jason are going out for lunch. Woohoo! I'm excited! But I don't know what else to talk about, I have therapy so ttyl. Luv ya lots! Leave comments! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
"Love is not a choice, it's a feeling." |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|05:19 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Changes" 2pac | ] |
Bleck. Man sry yesterdays journal was all crazy. I guess that's what happens when you lose two days of sleep. Ha. Hmm I think me n christine might go grab some starbucks, cuz that's what I'm craving right now. I feel so weird this week tho. I feel like I dunno like I'm growing up finally. It's petrifying tho (had to think of another word sides scary). Oh! I finally got some sleep. Thank God! I still don't feel right tho and I dunno why I'm even complaining cuz it doesnt matter. Youth group was fun the other nite! I hadn't been there in like 4 weeks. So everyone starts school next week, cept me. lol, I'll be so bored I'll prolly watch Oprah or somethin man. Or actually maybe I'll rent Baby Boy and Training Day, cuz I love Baby Boy and I wanna c Training Day so hey that worx I guess. Um I don't know what else to really talk about. So I guess I'll update later. tty then *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
"Open your eyes beyond what's laying in front of you." |
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| Blah Blah Blah |
[Aug. 3rd, 2004|12:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Surrender" Ashlee Simpson | ] |
So I feel like crap, which is no fun. Um...let's c I haven't slept since sunday and im not aloud to take a 30 minute rest or anything. gay! um so I went outside around 6 to walk my dog, made myself breakfast (woohooo! that's a first!), washed my car, mmmm worked out for two hours, got lunch, and here I am. lol. I have to get ready to go to therapy in a lil tho. bleh. I'm so frustrated and tired. I seriously hope I don't wreck on the way to therapy. It's one heck of a drive out there. Plus I drove like 5 minutes away from my house this morning and I swear cuz I'm so tired my eyes would like slowly drift off and then I'd make myself get up and things would be blurry cuz I have contacts. So pray ta God I don't wreck. Oh man and I just remember I have to drive an hour back to my other therapist, he's not even my therapist, he's my brothers, friggin a! sry, if I'm in a bad mood. I promise, if I could sleep I would, and then I'd be in a better mood. OMG! Everytime I sit still, my head does something weird and I twitch. It's crazy. WTF is wrong with me?! I feel like I'm losing it. Urgh, I think I'm having a mental breakdown or a nervouse breakdown. Scary! If you happen to notice this journal not updated for awhile, I'm prolly back in the hospital. Which would suck. I hated that place so much. Why am I even complaining this is so gay. I'll ttyl. |
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| Christine and Me |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|11:24 pm] |
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| | "Pieces Of Me" Ashlee SImpson | ] |
Me and christine are hanging out. We made brownie cake stuff. We were gonna go doorbell ditch but then we're like nah. oh! We went to the movies with Bryan and saw the Bourne Supremacy. It was good. We went to Jessies and the gas station with 2.27 in change for gas. lmao, pathetic, i know! haha! we swore on twinkies, made grilled cheese. Oh! we played with the kittens, cute cute cute stuff. We bugged Jimmy about guys. Guys are confusing! My gosh! Oooo and we're staring at a lava lamp. Friggin a, can't u tell we're bored. lol. Christines getting school clothes tomorrow. How exciting is that? Very! lol. Well dunno what else to talk about. Write more later. Luv ya'll lots! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
"Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowlodge of God and of Jesus our Lord."
2 Peter 1:2 |
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| Long Time |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|06:03 pm] |
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| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Confessions Part 1 and 2" Usher | ] |
Wow it's been awhile since I last updated. Prolly cuz I've been in Oklahoma. Not much happened there. I learned how to water ski and I got baptized and that's it. It sux to be back in Arizona tho cuz its so hot here. Things don't feel right either. I dunno. I feel down lately. Like there is no end to everything. It just won't stop, so it's like why bother to fight? I had fun the other nite with kristen and sarah tho, so that was cool. Well I don't feel good. I got 6 fillings today and my lip is the size of...i dunno, but its big. Write more tomorrow. Leave your comments. thanx. *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, invisible and visible, got started in Him and finds it purpose in Him."
Colossions 4:16 |
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| Guys Are Stupid, They Make You Feel Like....!!!!!! |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|10:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Dip It Low" Christian Milian | ] |
Guys make me soooo mad so warning before you read this I'ma complain the whole time. So let's start off by saying this one guy who lives by a relative of mine is frustrating me like no other. I saw him for the first time in a year two weeks ago or sumthin. So I call him becuz I felt bad about just not talking to him for a year and leaving last year so I call right? Right, so we talked and apparenly my relative tells him to call me and ask me over more often so my relative can see me more. Well since then every time I call he makes up excuses, EVERY TIME! no joke and I'm not exaggerating, I'm not unsure, I can hear him and I can tell. The thing was I actually liked this kid too, BIG MISTAKE! Forget him! Oh then theres this other kid that I liked and well it took me a year to realize he used me to get to my friend and he uses me as a prop for his benefit when there are no other girls around, oh and did I mention I liked him too? And this other guy I liked uses me to get to my friend too. Maybe I'm ugly and maybe that's why I've never had a relatinship with a guy. I prolly do all the wrong things. And its not comforting to feel this way right now. I'm soooo stressed. Can't wait till all this stupid drama for being a teenager is over. That's all being a teen is, is drama drama drama. I'm sick of guys and I'm so sick of trying on everything. I'll just give up and not care, wait for everything to come to me when times right, cuz lemme tell u right now, the timing for everything is not right. So foregt the guys, forget my problems, I'm just gonna wait and see. I'm tired of trying to change my appearance and it never works. It's prolly cuz I'm liking guys out of my league, well that's over and done with. Anyhow I'm gonna go before I blow up anymore. Sry about complaining. Luv most of you! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~I thought of this today. When you look at the night sky, there's the moon and the stars. Everyone of God's children is like the stars and God is like the moon. Without the moon (God) the stars (us) don't shine as bright, we're in a darker enviroment without Him. That's why we need God. |
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| An Update |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|06:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Lord's Prayer" Carmen | ] |
So, I haven't really updated in awhile. Nothing is new really. Same 'ol. And oooh I didn't get the job but I'm actually okay with it cuz she told me in the beginning that since I'm under 18 is wasn't likely I'd be hired. Oh well. Anywayz so I got up at like 6 and fell asleep at 3 cuz I had a dentist appointment. Fun huh? Ya loads then after I went to clean my mom's classroom up cuz she got hired for a different skewl. Man was it hot in her room or wut. Let's c, then I came home, dropped off a movie, went to c if my grandfather was home, then came home cuz I felt sick and I've been doing nothing since. I dunno if you guys have read kristens journal but she found a really great christian guy she deserves 100%. It's soooo cute. It's like a hopelessy romantic french fairy tale or sumthin. lol, she's so lucky tho and from what I've heard from kristen about this guy, I hope I find someone like him, not him tho, dude he's allll kristens, no doubt, lol, but ya hope I do. Who knows? When the times right hopefully it'll come. It's just aweomse how one person can make you wanna cahnge for the better, I think that's what I want, but if it's not what I need, then its alright, cuz it's God's will. Or hmm wait maybe I'll be like Old Mother Teresa and never get married. Yikes! Scary, lol. I'm dying to c the notebook! It looks so good. I wanna go c it with my mom. By the way, about that journal entry (the one before the lyrics to broken) I'm really sorry about it. I just like lost it. It's scary realzing I have this like uncurable disease that I just have to live out and deal with. It just takes time and I'm not the only one so who am I to complain right? And it could be worse, but I realize I'm always gonna have that feeling once in awhile I'll give up and lose control, but God's there and He lets things happen for a reason. I just have to look at it from a different point of view and I have so many great friends to help me see that. And once things hit rock bottom, they gotta go up and there HAS to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I mean I should know better. My grandma had the MOST positive attitude thru life and thru not one, two, or even five, but seven/eight years of cancer! So ya I think I can stop complaining and hang in there. I luv the comments u guys are giving me tho. I lyl! tty tomorrow. *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI
PS~"There is a time and place for everything under the sun." |
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| Broken |
[Jun. 24th, 2004|06:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jubilant | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Broken" Seether ft. Amy Lee | ] |
I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain, away
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cuz I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You're gone away
You don't feel me here, anymore
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain, away
There's so much left to learn
And noone left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cuz I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cuz I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Cuz I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cuz I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Cuz I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone (away)
You're gone away
You don't feel me here, anymore |
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| THAT'S IT! |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|07:18 pm] |
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| | worried | ] |
I AM SO FED UP WITH EVERYTHING! And my days with God I think r ya over. Know why?!?! I have been suffering for the longest time and doing nothing but praising Him and what not and fasting and my gosh I could go on. Then I give my life to Him and things man just got worse. I seriously think God hates me. It's even said that God has to find you, well He hasn't and maybe He doesn't want to. I'm sick of trying and praying. I'm just so sick of it all! I want all the pain to stop. If God didn't want to see me hurt like this then why is He lettting me suffer this bad? WHY?!?! I'm so lost in my life and just losing myself. All I want is to be a happy "normal" person! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR? DAMN IT! IS IT?!?! I JUST WANT THINGS TO STOP. PLEASE! WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? I'M SORRY FOR W/E I FRIGGIN DID WRONG. NO MORE, I JUST DON'T WANNNA HURT ANYMORE! I JUST WANT IT TO STOP. God lets u go thru trials to build ur faith well I'm fuckin losin mine and I'm not gonna lie. I'm scared of Him. I dunno where to turn anymore. I'm sick of looking for answers. I'm just going to wait till He gets me cuz I'm so LOST! Was there any use of me trying? It got me this far but I'm still stuck, all I want is a break from everything. One moment to be so happy and not remember all the pain. I don't give up but why fight for something you can't really win? I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry. I'm sorry to all the ppl I made listen to my stupid problems, all the ppl that had to be around how negative I was, and I'm sorry to God that I couldnt be enough. I'm SORRY. NO MORE THO! JUST NO MORE! Or please just give me a break...I'm so sorry. Don't wanna give up my life and I'm not gonna but what do I have to look forward to? My gosh! |
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| Bored As Can Be |
[Jun. 21st, 2004|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Angel Of Mine" Monica | ] |
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Kissed your cousin: no I actually haven't
2. Ran away: ya when I was 8
3. Pictured your crush naked: no, I'm not lying either
4. skipped school: ya
5. Broken someone's heart: no
6. Been in love: no
7. Cried when someone died: ya
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: sure
9. Pretended to eat food but actually fed it to the dog: ya
10. Done something embarrasing: ya
11. Done a drug: heck no
12. Cried in school: no
WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: Sprite
15. Girls or Guys: Guys
16. Flowers or Candy: candy..AND flowers :)
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: either
18. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: emm neither
20. Tall or Short: Tall
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants
22. Night or Day: Night
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: eyes smile then personality
24. Last person you slow danced with: absolutely no clue
25. Worst Question To Ask: Do you think you could tell me about some of your friends and how hot they are?
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: earlier tonight
27. Stepped outside: an hour ago
28. Had Sex: never
29. Romantic memory: never really had any
RANDOMS
30. Your Good Luck Charm: my silver necklace with the cross on it
31. Person You Hate Most: my mom and dads judge
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: ohhh nothing
33. On your desk: buncha art stuff
34. Picture on your desktop: none its blue
35. Color: pink
36. Movie: mean girls
37. Artist: monte'
38. Cars: cute ones
39. Ice Cream: chocolate
40. Season: winter
41. Breakfast Food: coffee cake, yum!
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: prolly kelly
43. Makes you smile: um...prolly brendon
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: nobody, its difficult to understand
45. Has A Crush On You: umm no one I know of
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: no
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: guys
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: no one really
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no im not that bored
50. Save MSN conversations: y msn?
51. Save E-mails: i dont save them i just dont delete them
52. Forward secret E-mails: if ur forwarding it how can it be a secret?
53. Wish you were someone else: not really
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: ew no boys are icky
55. Wear perfume: calibornes mambo sumtimes
56. Kiss: lol there is no one for me to kiss
57. Cuddle: theres no one to cuddle with
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: nope
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend?: nah
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: no
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?: heck no!
63. Been rejected: ya prolly
64. Been in love?: nope
65. Been in lust?: ya
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used?: no
68. Cheated on someone?: no
69. Been cheated on?: no
70. Been kissed?: no
71. Done something you regret?: not that I can think of
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: my little brother
73. You talked to?: kristen
74. You hugged?: my mom
75. you instant messaged?: kristen
76. you kissed?: no one
77. You yelled at?: josh
78. You thought about?: not sure
79. Who text messaged you? i dont even have a cell
80. Who broke your heart?: not a clue
81. Who told you they loved you?: my brother
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair?: not on a regular basis
83. Have tattoos?: Nope
84. Have piercings?: my ears once
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
86. Own a webcam?: i do not
87. Own a thong?: yes i do
88. Ever get off the damn computer?: yep
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: I'm not even gonna try to guess
90. Habla espanol?: un poco
91. Quack? duck!
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: no
93. Smoke?: ew no
94. Schizophrenic?: heck no, that's scary man.
95. Obsessive?: no
96. Compulsive?: no
97. Obsessive compulsive?: use to be
98. Panic?: ya once in awhile
99. Anxiety?: ya all the time, its a disorder, leave me alone
Luv ya'll! *SMOOCH*
XOXO~BRIT BRI |
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| Quiz Thing |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|02:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Talk About Our Love' Brady ft. Kayne West | ] |
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your profile and see what I say about you?
21. Wanna make out? |
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| Nothing Special |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|01:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Cry" Mandy Moore | ] |
What do you do
when you feel like the whole world's turned against you
and you don't even no why
you bothered in the first place to try
Life goes on
and it's a battle to stay strong
Times try hard
that in the end just leave scars
Maybe it's just me
causing everything to be
and I can't say I understand
how many times I've offend
So I'm sorry for all the pain
that's put you all through the rain
maybe I'm insane
but now there's no playing games
things can never be the same
It's time for a change
time to lay back, let my life rearrange
I can't wait for a miracle no more
this pain is something I can't ignore
Prayer is all I got
it's my one last shot
so dear God please let me hold on
before all that's left of my hope is forever gone
This is my one last request
after that I'll face any test
always try my best
till my souls put to rest
Thanx.
No, it's not a poem, part of a song, or anything. Just sumthin I wrote. |
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